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The way I want to be.
I'm just waiting to fly away.
Wrapped up in my cocoon.
Silently, patiently waiting.
One day I will be free.
And I will be beautiful.
And I will not be afraid to be me.
But till then, I'll wait.

星期日, 一月 21, 2007

21/1/07 sunday 2.02am

well.. didnt blog for a few mnths.. my life changed alot during tis few mnths..haiz..


hh n i broke up le.. he initiated it.. haiz.. i tried to make him stay..bt..he was too determined.. i had never seen him so determined bfore.. perharps.. he really cant take it anymore.. well.. i was really heart broken.. haiz.. its all my fault.. who else can i blame?.. till now i still cant 4get him.. haiz.. sumtimes in the night will think of him.. n cry.. haiz.. i noe its useless to say all these now.. i hav to learn hw to let go.. let him live happily..

well.. i dunno y.. i noe he's nt mine anymore.. bt i still so foolish..keep thinking of him..haiz.. even my blog bcum so sad bcoz of him..haiz..wonder hw haf he been.. mayb.. he haf found a new gal.. mayb he alrdy 4gotten me..

haiz.. juz now..wenyao smsed me..asking me to join dem to celebrate his bd.. haiz..i really want to go n tell him 'happy bd'..bt..haiz..i dunno hw to face him.. sometimes on msn, after saying 'hi' to him.. we haf nth really much to tok abt.. haiz.. we r drifting apart.. he is leaving my world..

i m so stupid..only on msn.. i can heart to heart tok wif my friends.. only in my blog.. i can let out my unhappiness.. haiz..tat day when he wanna break wif me.. i went to find may.. i wanted to tell may everything, i wanted to cry out loud..bt i dunno wats stopping me.. in the end i told her nth at all.. haiz.. i m so useless.. i can only cry when every1 in the hse is asleep.. only when i m hiding in my bed..

haiz..y do i haf to pretend to b normal infront of every1 else.. the more i try to b happy.. the more sad i m...y..y...y m i lyk tis.. i noe i dun haf to pretend.. bt .bt..haiz.. at first after we broke up.. i wanted to 4get abt him totally.. bt y.. y he can still chat wif me on msn.. n seems so cheerful as though nth haf happen.. the more normal he seems to be.. the more my heart hurts.. i rather he ignore me 4eva.. n leave me to die by myself.. haiz..

today is the 21st of jan.. if.. we didnt break up.. it will be the 30th mnths we r together.. haiz.. 2days to his bd.. happy bd to u.. bt can u hear it?

anyway.. thx to those who helped me these few wks.. thx lots.. think nxt tym den i will post abt my jc life bahz..haiz

my happiest moment in my life : 21st july2004 to 27th july 2006..2years5mnths6days

ended my post wif tears...

One day I'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday.
2:02 上午